Nick Coleman

I just clicked back through my archives and realized I’ve been blogging for over a year now. A year and four months, actually… an anniversary that came and went with no fanfare, and no reason for it. When I started this blog it was essentially as a way to fill spare time… the seemingly endless amounts of spare time I had when still in Missouri trying to make Ozark Mile happen. And while that project is still alive (though slumbering), the reason for this blog is unclear: am I writing here simply as a promotional tool? I hope not. I put far too much time into it for it to only serve that purpose. Is it to explore ideas, thoughts, and feelings? Sometimes. But maybe not enough.

Since I don’t hide behind a moniker, or make up names for people I talk about, I find that I censor myself quite a bit in what I talk about here… and while that certainly saves me from embarassment and protects me from myself, it also tends to mean boring writing. I mean, if I’m only pointing out the odd humorous website and the occasional career update, how interesting a blog could this be? And so I find myself thinking back to those early posts, when I wanted to chronicle the anguishing process of creating a feature film as an indy filmmaker. Well, I did that… and largely didn’t write about it because I tend to compartmentalize while working and only spend time on things relevant to the job at hand.

So now what?

I know that I enjoy working on the blog… but mostly because it’s a geek outlet, playing with technology. In fact, I probably spend too much time tweaking the gee-gaws on here#–time that I could more efficiently spend writing screenplays, or short stories, or drawing. But I also have found friends through blogging and don’t want to disappear. Really, my biggest concern is that I’ve turned into one of those boring bloggers that I quit reading after a week or two#–a blogger who will, once in a great while, write something entertaining or interesting, but for the most part is just filling up the internet with pointless clutter.

So let this be a notice that I intend to do some things differently here. With rehearsals starting on the 26th of this month, I’ll use this space to follow the creative journey I take through the process of creating the roles in which I’ve been cast. And until the show is over, that will primarily be what the blog is about. And rather than make it some nuts and bolts diatribe on "what I’m doing", I will attempt to delve into the emotional and social aspects#–what I find difficult, how I feel about the process, and what my fears are. Who knows… maybe this will lead to another year and a half before a review.